Ok, so read this is if you want or go read about someone's drama of losing their favorite pencil.. Choice is yours.
But can I just say something...
I REALLY feel angry... Not like a sinful angry but just a "had enough" kind of anger.
I am tired. I am tired of trying to figure out "people's" way of living a Christian life.
I say this bc I'm sorry... "man" has created this "Christian" life as a whole bunch of rules that no one can obey. No one.
God does not expect us to be a perfect rule follower. In fact He KNOWS 100% we.will.fail. If we put our trust in anything other than Him.
I am someone who has had to learn everything the hard way.
I have hurt my family more than I want to focus on but you know what. I can stand up on solid ground and say... That I AM REDEEMED and saved by my God through His only son.
Who is the way. The truth. And the light. And NO ONE comes to the Father except through Him.
It is by grace alone I have not been sent to the darkest part of hell.... Bc that is exactly what I deserve... Sorry but that is exactly what all of us deserve.
But God sent His son to die on a cross so that we CAN be saved.
It really angers me that people expect us "Christian" Christ followers to be quiet about our beliefs... and I'm sorry.... But my God, Savior, the Lord of Lord and King of Kings has saved me from WAY to much to be quiet.
It's like I have a billion dollars burning in my hand and want to give it out to everyone... But everyone thinks it is a joke...
And it is free.... It is God's gift:
His gift of help, healing, and redeeming!
I'm sorry if "Christians" have given Jesus a bad name... I'm sorry I have given my God a bad name. I am a bad example of what He is,has been, and will always be!
Stop looking at other sinners to see the face of God.... He is SO much better than our dirty rags we have to offer.
Christians. WAKE UP! I mean really where are you???
We have two things to do in this life here on Earth...
1. Love God
2. Love your neighbor....
He answered, "'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind'; and, 'Love your neighbor as yourself.'"
Yes, your black neighbor.
Yes, your white neighbor.
Yes, your gay neighbor.
Yes, your completely straight judgmental neighbor.
Yes, your lying neighbor.
Yes, the murderer that lives next to you! Oh, you didn't know you lived by a murderer or an adulteress??? Well, God says
Matthew 5:28
But I tell you that anyone who looks at a woman (or man) lustfully has already committed adultery with her (him) in his (her) heart.
1 John 3:15a
Anyone who hates a brother or sister is a murderer
Samuel 16:7b
7b "For the Lord does not see as man sees; for man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.”
Life is short. Better make sure your heart is covered by the blood! You have the choice today.... Not when you're dead and standing before a holy and just God.
Thankful God doesn't see my sin. He sees his son's blood that was shed for me...
Stop fighting for yourself... God is always here... Don't you think if he created you He knows you inside and out... Don't you think he wants the absolute best for you and your life.
Christians stop sitting back and letting others tell us to keep quiet.... I'm sorry. I have had enough. I'm tired of feeling like I am the odd man out when God has put the very breath in me to even have a life...
Yes, you will see my sin... Everyday. That I can promise you.... But I'm not chained to that sin... and I am not chained to satan... He has NO POWER over me... I was bought with a price.... My Jesus's blood... He paid my way to an abundant life!
There are so many hurting people.... Why aren't we the hands and feet of Jesus? Jesus gave everything for us... So why can't we give back to Him? Me completely included
Christians are just as sinful as
nonbelievers... We just know we have true freedom in Christ.. Bc He is good enough.. And Nothing else was or ever will be...
It just makes me sad when I look at myself first and think.... "No wonder people want to shut us out..." "Christians" are so fake, judgmental, hard to live with and harder to be friends with....
They always have something to say or someone to talk about... So why in the world would anyone WANT what we have...
Then. I became angry.... Really angry with Satan. In thinking... Here you have kept me silent for YEARS because I was "afraid" to give God a bad name.... Bc my sin has been so obvious. And the problem is my flesh is nothing of the Lords! But. My heart does belong to Jesus... Has for 25 years! Twenty five! So no more.
I want people to see me as a complete sinner, but a sinner who has hope. Bc of Jesus.
Jesus is the answer to ALL questions.... Not man.
We only think we know God's way... We have no idea.
And the truth is... If I start believing I know what is right and who is doing right. I'm completely thrown off.... I want people to see what I have tasted is good.... Not the beer, the sex, the gossip, or hypocrisy...
People get so tied up on "Well, if He/ She loved God he/ she wouldn't be doing that"
Or God doesn't like gay people.... Well, I'm sorry but God loves ALL people so I think "gay, straight, purple or green" fit in the "ALL" category. I'm glad it isn't my job to judge anyone hearts... It is only my job to love them. 😊
So yes.
I am a Christian that have gay friends.
I am a Christian that has Christian friends who gossip and heck gossip right along with them...
I am a Christian that has black, white, brown and a beautiful blend of all three friends,
I am a Christian that had sex before she was married.
But. I am a Christian.
I am a Christ follower, who is being turned into something beautiful.
God promises that. He promises that He makes ALL things beautiful...
"He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end."
~Ecclesiastes 3:11~
So all my sin. All my hurt, and ugly heart... He is making more like Him everyday.
I say all this to not give "fire assurance" to believers who know the Lord but want to keep on living for themselves.... And just "love others"
If you truly love something you live for it.... So if you say you love God you wouldn't be choosing to live in complete sin... I have so been there... I said with my mouth I loved God but my actions where the out pour of a very selfish heart....
My heart has really loved ME more times than one...
I have been there... Done that. More times than I even wanted. I can promise you.... That since God is a just God.... And He does not tolerate sin. It will. not. Go.without. punish.
So whatever sin we all have in our lives... We need to know it needs to be confessed...
Sin brings consequences.
Sin takes more away than you ever intended to give...
It has stolen so much of me that I have to face everyday...
BUT the difference now it doesn't have a hold on me anymore.... It doesn't keep me from not sharing Gods goodness anymore...
I want people to know I will mess up... But I want them to know the peace my God gives me.... A hope I can live with, and a strength so that I can face tomorrow.
And a love that can love others like Jesus did....
The free gift is here.... Will you choose to receive it?
Christians.... Stop hiding. Stand up for your living God.
"If God is for me... Who can be against me?!"
