God is good!

So, I'm thinking about how good God is, and decided...HEY this is what my blog is suppose to be for. To let EVERYONE know what the Lord is doing in my life. So, I am up here in Greenville with my wonderful boys. Loving life....but most days feel like I just need a GOOD cry! Ya know...really want it to come out before someone asks you how you are doing, and at that moment you just let it ALL out! And that person at that time is like...wow...I shouldn't have asked. Tell you the truth I don't really know why I have been feeling like this...I LOVE being married, Chip is a WONDERFUL husband...no DOUBT I have the best in the whole world, and yeah I know thats a lot of men to say I have the BEST, but I do. I really do LOVE being home with the baby. I love knowing every little detail about him. I think it just started getting to me that EVERYday I do the SAME thing, watch the same shows...and nothing changes. Ill realize wow it is almost the end of the week, and I have left my house um maybe once this entire week. Ok, if anyone knows me I am a VERY active person. So, I really thought to myself "am i depressed and not even know it?!" "OH GREAT Im going to be wearing those moo moo's before my time!" So, I'm thinking you know..I have no friends....which means I have no fellowship. NOT GOOD. Perfect place for satan to just squeeze himself into my life, and I not even notice it. And as we all know I have been through enough letting satan take control. Yep, enough to already last me two life times. No more lessons to be learned there. But here is why God is so good. I have been praying just for contentment, fellowship, growth, something. Boy, God answered my prayers FAST! My sister calls me and tells me about this program called Mentor Moms. At her church. Thought, huh, should be fun. I knew this was an open door for me.
It was today, and BOY was satan trying to attack me. I did NOT feel like going AT ALL! Not sure why. I think I was in this whole " I don't want to meet new friends. I have my friends thanks though." But I went and no lie as soon as I pulled up in the parking lot I KNEW it was going to be great! and it was. The girls were wonderful, and I look fwd to getting to know them! I needed today SO MUCH....and that leads me back to me wishing I had let all my tears out. Well today when we were all about to start praying together...I could feel it coming...I'm like GREAT everyone is going to be like WoW! "Maybe we should lay hands on this one! LoL" So, the lead lady was in our group just talking about some girl, and here I am just crying....she looks at me and is like "oh honey!"...I thinking I don't know WHY I'm crying please don't ask. But it was good. Some of the girls have already emailed me and are reaching out. Bless them! I'm going to the library tomorrow with two girls in my group for story time. I'm so excited! The little things that get you excited when you are a mom!

So, this is how I get spoiled with God. Bc He knew I couldn't wait to get friends I needed them NOW! I was not thinking that or how bad it was, and seriously JUST started praying about it. Its neat how the Lord was softening my heart (even when I didn't think it needed to be soften), so that I could go today. I was thinking well...when it comes it comes, but really I had a hard heart about it. I'm already starting to like Greenville better and its ok if this is my home forever. God will take care of me and my family. If I DO put Him first and seek out followship and Christian friends. It's out there.

Update on Jay. He has TWO teeth now!!! I can't believe it! He is starting to sit up. My little man is growing up so fast. He has his 6 month check up on Friday!!!! I still can't believe he is that old! Its funny how my love for Jay has changed. Im starting to love him for who he IS. Not just bc I created this little thing and he is all mine. I love Jay bc of the little person that he is, and the personality that he has now. My favorite two things are: when he wakes up and is playing in his crib and looks up at me and smiles! Its like he is saying, "Ah my favorite person in the world!", and when he sees Chip and just smiles and smiles!! He will watch him all night, just stares at him with this look like "Man, I want to be JUST like you one day Dad!"